At the risk of making this a sappy relationship blog, I’m going to admit that I felt a pretty sharp jolt when I saw my previous lover was involved in a new facebook relationship. I know I’ll never speak to him, I’ve known that since October, September maybe. And I’m happily dating someone else. STILL. We did love each other at one point. Or maybe we didn’t. Maybe we just pretended. How can you tell the difference between what you want to feel and whats really there? Maybe I haven’t been with any one person long enough for the make believe to wear away. I guess its ultimately a good thing. I am quite sure she is what he wanted that I could never be. (A different race, different sorority, petite) all things I couldn’t really change even if I’d wanted to. I was almost taller than him, blonde and wasn’t about to give up my letters. So here’s to hoping she’s the one for him. (and for no more emails and drunk phone calls from the ex)
